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Monday, January 29th, 2007
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1:24 pm - nice guys finish last...
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and im sick of not coming in first... even second. hell i'ld even take second to last if i could. since i've been back from Florida i've lost three of my best friends... thats depressing. one of them i could have prevented, i did sorta start it but for some reason...idk :-( im afraid that maybe i came back here for nothing, i mean i came back here (and yes this may sound cliche) for one person because our friendship meant alot to me and now i think it may just dissapate... shame. i would go back to Florida now but i cant leave Alecia. i like her too much in fact i may be falling for her. that would be very nice. i've spent much time alone and wondering if i ever would find anyone and now i have.. shes almost perfect if not that! :) i also said some things about someone who did nothing wrong and i would like very much to appologize to her but i know she wouldnt listen. she didnt have anything to do with our fight. the truth is i dont like her. i never did and i never gave any signs of my liking her. in fact i tryed very hard to avoid her cause i didnt want to be mean to my friends friend. i shouldnt have brought her into this argument and im sorry... now if only i could say this to her face....i still dont like her though. soon i'll be moving away and i wont be able to see alecia as often, cause my dads a hard ass, but it will be good for me. get my grades up and get me a job, that way by June if Alecia and i are still together we can get an apartment together, but who knows. i am depressed and it comes on very strong sometimes, which is what i believe prompted me to say hurtful things to my best friend. its no explaination though so i dont know how to tell her. she cant just forgive me cause im sad. i want to get along with them but i dont know how to fix it. i dont think i ever will and then we may never be friends again. it makes me want to cry. i dont want to not know her. i dont know what to do but im just going to take it one day at a time and try to get my life in order. i dont want to be sad anymore...someone...please...make the hate go away... <:(
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| Sunday, December 31st, 2006
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1:22 pm - final thought of '06
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first off, i would like to appologize regardless of who reads this or not. the things i said last time were very hurtful and no one deserves to be spoken to like that, no matter who you are. just know we still wont get along and please dont say anything back anymore, but accept it or not, im not my brother. and i should be civil and respectful, even when caught in something ugly.
now for better things i got to see Aiden! he was so cute on christmas. everything he opened he gasped and said "its just what i wanted!!" it was adorable. Alecia and i are getting along well. i just ignore everything anyone tries to tell me about her. if i want to know i'll ask her, and she'll tell me no matter what. although i am getting concerned with AJ always hanging out with them them being my girlfriend and her family. every day. he's there and her friends keep thinking he's alecia's Boyfriend. im getting rather pissed about it and i dont want anything big to blow up in my face. so im just gonna let it go and if her family decides they dont like him anymore (which they will) they can kick him out. besides alecia ignores him most of the time and talks to me. she invites me places and he invites himself. as long as i know im still welcome there i dont give a shit. we (kurt alecia and i) were supposed to go to the Stillborn Fest yesterday but kurt said he didnt have enough money, that he had to go pay the cell phone bill. and yet he didnt even do that... instead he reluctantly bought me cigarettes. how sweet of him, hes a caring older brother isnt he. anyway, im kinda nervous cause im hangin out with Alecia and her moms friend toninght and AJ was supposed to be going too. i think he'll change his mind though when he hears that im going. if he does then i'll know something is up. why cant he hangout with all of us tonight? why is it that when im there he cant be. i dont know. i dont get it, and i dont care. HAPPY FUCKIN NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!
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| Monday, December 11th, 2006
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7:15 pm - its begining to look alot like...hell
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well the holidays are upon us and im not with my family. i've been living with the Labreques for a while now, more than a month. ive been going to school and i even have a girlfriend now, one whos amazing and beautiful and i just cant stop thinking about her. im not doing very well in school. one of my teachers (whos job is specifaclly to help me) isnt doing his job so im gonna report him to someone. kurt... whew, i dont even know where to start. its sad that he seems to have become the topic of most of our jokes now, but i suppose he brought this on himself. see he was with julia for a while, and was mooching off of her, and then he switched to Sarah and is being spioled by her mom. now he has someone new in RI or something that sarahs not happy about. i tryed to talk to sarah about kurt but apparently she just told him that i was talkin shit on him. you know if you want help from me, dont make me look like the fucking bad guy. i hear from Aimee, she feels bad for sarah, i hear from beckie, she feels bad for julia. i feel bad for none of them cause they didnt have to fucking sleep with him. but they are my friends its just that theres nothing i can do. but at least he finally got a job. his first paycheck... blew it in three days. on nothing. he could have paid our cell phone bill but he didnt and now its off...again... oh and fucking richelle is being a stupid fucking pollock and is threatening to call the cops on him cause he didnt return her plates. so he'll have no way to get anywhere now. i garuntee (yes its spelled wrong) that that fucking retard matt told her to call the cops in hopes that he'll get aressted, when in reality they havent gone through any steps of divorce so nothing is gonna happen to kurt. sorry to bust you bubble bitch, but your husband wont get aressted the most that will happen is that he'll get his plates taken away. but thats no problem for him cause hes got sarah to drive him everywhere... its pretty fucked up i know. i just wish that fucking cunt would stop trying to ruin his life cause its fucking up mine too. thats okay i heard from brittany that the two of those fucking polish retards made steve move out too. ha ha you suck!!! i hope he gets her pregnant and they ruin their lives... that would be hilarious.
so Aimee is apparently giving up on Heather which is a good thing. i want to look into getting an apartment with Aimee, that way i have more time to decide what to do with my life after high school. i dont mind living with the Labreques again, the only problem is that i dont have my own room so i have no where i can be alone with Alecia...oh Alecia, shes so gorgeous, and amazing. saturday i went to her house where we had amazing sex all day and then we went out to Mo Sun with Kurt and aimee and sarah and erika, then we met up with amanda and went to hooters. it wasnt that good. but i still had an awesome time that day. Alecia told me she loved me and i didnt know what to say. we've only been going out for a week, but i reluctanly said it back to her at the end of the night, she was thrilled. by the way shes not very discreet when she wants to discuss our sex life... i sure hope she is when she meets my mom...lol...
anyway i feel rather confused lately rather than angry and sad like i was in october. now all i need is a job and i'll be all set, but right now i can sit back relax, smoke a bowl and chill with Colby every night while i wait for kurt to hit even more rock bottom, well i geuss hes already there and now we're just waitin for him to strike gold...he...he he he...yeah right, well peace out my bitches...
D-Man Diddy Topp, signing off...
p.s. Richelle...go to hell, i cant believe you ever listened to that faggot. hope you make his dick fall of when hes fuckin you in the ass... HA HA HA!!!!! >:)
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| Friday, October 13th, 2006
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1:57 pm
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well last night was almost a disaster. im not quite sure what brought it on. i think it started when i went to Blockbuster and i had to get an ID before Mike could Hire me. so Aimee took me to the DMV, but i needed my SS card and a peice of mail. i seem to have miss-placed my ss card and i have no mail cause now i have no home, in a manner of speaking. see, ive stayed at Aimees house for the past few days, cause i just didnt want to see kurt, but we went and saw him anyway so he could hook up Aimee's system. my mom had given him money, so i dont know if he bought the beer or not. i dont think he did though. but anyway, he was drinking and trying to fix his truck, then he wanted to go off roading. i didnt want to go, and he tarted getting mad at his truck. colby came by and the dumbass was really fucking stoned. so i went back to aimee's, we played some guitar hero, and then went to the marina to play Hackey sack with Heather, Sarah, Andy and some other dude (i forgot his name) Heather was pissing me off cause she wouldnt stop talking about shaving Sarahs name into her pubic hairs. i was totally disgusted so i walked away. i went down on the docks, sat by myself and cryed. i must have cryed for an hour until kurt showed up. and i wanted to kill him. i wanted to kill myself. i felt i trully had nothing. and Ashley came over and tryed to talk to me. we talked and i realized that she and i are in the exact same positiotn. she came from Ohio to start her life anew, and she ended up having nothing, not being able to do anything and it made me realize just how much Ashley and i are alike, especially in relation to Aimee. then Aimee came by and we had one of those terrifying anti-suicide talks. Aimee was trying desperatly to get my mind on something else, but i just wouldnt listen to her. i scared her. she started crying and walked away. she was pissed. it was then that i felt as though the situation was just like when i first met Aimee, only backwards. this time shes the happy one and i wanted to kill myself, and she was just trying to help.
Heather came over and tryed talking to me, but i dont know her well enough to start talking to her seriously. Aimee talked to kurt i suppose cause he came over and i yelled at him. told him to leave. but he and i sat down had a little chat and we all decide that im going to stay with Aimee for a while whilest he finds a job any job, and a place to live, and he will send money to take care of me so Aimees mom doesnt need to spend a dime on me. i suppose if im doing that then it could be alright. i told kurt that i wanted him to stop drinking so much and to never NEVER again drive drunk, cause thats all he does now. i dont want him to put his car around a tree, or worse. so im going to stay here and not go to North Carolina cause im really happy that Zac is coming home and all, but i have to start school and get a job. i dont care what my mom says. so right now im goin to stay with Aimee, i have money for food, and im going to get a job. then maybe i can go to school. i dont know how things will be in one month but for now, after all that, and after seeing who my friends are....well i kknow im home again.
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| Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
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6:50 am - what the fuck!!!!
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well, now i just dont know what to say...hes a whore. he has no soul, and he is going to hell. tonight kurt spent a random 5 bucks he found on booze. he told me it was for food, but when he went to McDonalds Aimee had to pay. AIMEE!! kurt went and got drunk... then while everyone was out, Julias dad came by and fucking bitched at me for "taking advantage of the house" and "not paying rent" he told me to move kurts truck and i just looked at him dumbfounded. he gave Julia one month to find a new place.
kurt was drunk, so then he got an idea to go and drive...to the marina...and get more drunk with Aimee, and Sarah, and Ashley, and then a bunch of other people showed up. Erika was there but she was smashed. in fact she antagonized a crazy lady to come down and swing a bloody hand through the air in our faces, then she threw an open bottle of juice at us, and was all up in everyones face. that was when the cop came and he seemed very unhappy that the lady was there and yelling.
i asked Aimee if she could give me a ride home cause i didnt want to get in a car with Kurt...he was drunk. the more i look at this screen, the less i can keep my eyes open, i got no sleep cause Aimee and Ashley are fucking loud... too much happened today that i just want sleep. then i can wake up and go see Candace...i cant wait.
good night world
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| Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
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10:55 am
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i dont know if people realize it but, the break up is effecting me too. not just that i got screwed over and kicked out of a safe place to live, but it hurts to see them always fighting. for years ive watched them fight and i always wished they could find a way to figure it out and maybe one day stop fighting. i guess i was wrong. and because i was living with them its like watching my parents divorce. i was too young to see them split, but i still had to live with the hardships of thinking that it was normal for all kids to have two homes. one with their mom and one with their dad. ive never had a father around when i needed him. i dont even know what i would need a father for. i wouldnt know what to do for my kids if i ever have Any.
watching them leave each other behind breaks my heart. Richelle is one of my best friends, but kurts my brother. i have to listen to them both and when they talk to me, i feel like o need to pick a side! like im supposed to agree with everything they say! i cant do that! i just cant fucking do that!!! i love them both, but i have my own feelings about the divorce. when i was in RI, i just couldnt function. kurt left a week later. ONE FUCKING WEEK HE WAS HOME AND THEN HAD TO GO!!! i broke down. i had no where to go, no one to seek comfort. the world around me seemed empty and i was a small light in a baren void. there was a dark sense about the things i was thinking. horrible things. i had nothing so i felt i had no reason...and no rope. i even felt like i just wanted to disapear and never come back. but i couldnt tie a noose. one night when they were at work, i tried to tie one with an electrical cord, but i didnt know what i was doing and it was hard enough as it was trying to tie an electric cord. it was then that i lost it all. i couldnt even fucking kill myself!!!!!!!!!!!
kurt...that little sack of shit needs to fucking die. he still has no job, blew 2500 dollars in one month, never found a place for us to live(i did) he bought a fucking shitty ass truck and now we have no money cause he wasted it all on beer. always fucking beer. every fucking day he "needed" beer, and when he wasnt drinking with colby he was in New London Fucking Malory. but its okay he doesnt want a relationship with her. then why the fuck does he always fucking talk about her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we have no money, he has no job (beckies hookin me up at Blockbuster, thanks Beckie - Fooge) we wake up and wonder if we are going to eat today. in short the little fuck does nothing for me and he acts like he owns the fucking world. then one night we all go down to the Comic shop to see AJ, and he wanted to smoke a bowl with Josh and me, and kurt knew this. i do understand that julia had to go to work in the morning, but at 2 in the morning, just as we started smoking and getting ready to go, kurt tells us to stop smoking and get in the car. we say just a sec, so he said, "well im leaving if your in the car or not" josh said "then fucking leave" and he left. me and josh at the shop all fucking night, in the cold fucking rain. AJ was cool enough to keep it open all night so we didnt have to walk in the rain. then he got all pissed off saying he needed to know where i was. yes, i made a mistake, i should have gotten in the car. but he should not leave an under age kid in the fucking rain and not care where i was. i dont think he can neglect me for a month and when its at his convenience, play the role of parent if it gets me in trouble. the next day he said he tought about sending me back to FL!!!! so i made one fucking mistake!!!! and his imediate reaction was FL!!! god what a dick, and any money he does get for us for food, he'll either blow it on beer or his truck. hes in charge of me which means hes being irresponsible with my life, my very existence. i hope he dies.
but Richelles not innocent either. even before kurt came home she knew what she wanted to do, so then why didnt she tell me! i could have stayed in FL and sulked and then moved up here on my own. she could have saved us all lots of trouble. im a good friend of richelle. ya know someone to talk to, or for her to talk to. and she seemed kinda down alot when i was living there. and as always i would try and talk to her but i wasnt allowed to. ever single fucking time i tryed to talk to her, that fucking cunt rag, McChicken, would jump right up, push me back and tell me to forget it, like i didnt fucking matter. then she did this and im not mad at her for wanting a divorce. if she wasnt happy, then she shouldnt be with him, i know i dont fucking want to be with him. but i left for one weekend and come back to hear that her other friends were already moving in and they had all their stuff there just waiting for me to get my stuff out of my room. she kicked me out. i cant tell her how much i appreciated her help in buying me food and stuff, but that was a dick move. she even told me that she has no one good to look forward to seeing in Norwich anymore. no one. people, Richelle Pothier is never coming back and im so scared im gonna lose her as a friend. i still love her and i will always consider her family, but its just so sad.
Richelle, i know you will read this and i want you to know im not mad at you. i just needed to organize my thoughts on this subject. but i wont lie to you and im sorry you have to read this, you can stop if you want but i must say this. i fucking hate D3l. i hope he fucking dies and i never want to see him again.
so thats whats going on and this is the reason i want to kill myself...
-Dougie
p.s. oh yeah and im still not in school casue my mom hasnt mailed my stuff yet, and kurts doing jack shit to get me into school, dear god i hate to say this but i need a cigarette.
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| Monday, August 28th, 2006
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9:58 pm - well now im great
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we got internet now so we can all go on the Computer oh and for those of you that dont know who i mean by "we" i mean my sister in law Richelle Topping! yes im now living with Richelle and Kurt in the grand 'ol state of Rhode Island! and although i am at last happy once again, i am feeling slightly aggitated. you see i've made many friends in the past and they all like me. and yet ever so QUICKLY they seem to no longer be a part of my life. thats fine, i can understand if they dont like me, but them why talk to me in the first place? if you are going to end up just ignoring me anyway, then just stay the fuck away to begin with! im not even sure who i can call my friends anymore! i feel like everyone fucking ditched me!maybe i cant see whats so annoying about me thats making everyoner turn away! maybe im blind to the fact that im a gigantic fucking douche bag! well then just say it! fucking say it to my face! if you dont like me then i fucking hate you!!!! its like, every time i need a friend, no one is there. im all alone on this god forsaken rock and theres nothing i can do or will do that will ever matter in this life! where are we going what are we doing and why am I the only doing it!? soemtimes i just want to end it. i just want to fucking snap my neck and die. i want the last thing i feel to be a scratchy rope around my neck, and then my troubles are gone. and if not, i can always move to another state and do nothing the rest of my life. im sure thats what im gonna do. im not going to make big hollywood movies! im going to end up in some freakin Pizza resteraunt being made fun of for the rest of my life. well to all those who i havent seen in a least a month, goodbye, you're never going to see my face again, and i really dont care...
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| Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
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7:44 pm
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FUCK IT ALL
FUCK THIS WORLD
FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!!!
im through.... i quit.... im done....fuck people all of them can burn and die....i want to fucking kill somebody...everybody!!!! FUCK THIS FUCKING LIFE OF MINE!!!
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| Monday, May 29th, 2006
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8:52 am - anyways...
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| Saturday, May 27th, 2006
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8:02 pm - whoa
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well im in CT and yesterday i went to Norwich for a while to see my friend Sarah... she wanted to go to the Falls after school. well we went and i ran into, Sparkle (that loser) Dino (even worse) and Mandiville, Dave Rosenfield and Steven H. so nothing exciting so far.then we went to Colby's house and hung out with him for a while, then we got Red Eye and Walk the Line and took them back to Sarah's, we put in Red Eye and i did not see more than two minutes of that movie.
there was some hardcore makin out and heavy...petting... it was when she was stradlling me and kissing me frantically when her stepmom walked in the room...AWKWARD!!!! i hardly know her parents and they were nice to me, fed me and gave me a place to sleep and we were seconds away from being in some real trouble...so she told us to keep the door open and to be responsible...i was freakin terrified so i stepped outside to have a cigarette and she was alllllll over me... all im going to say is that while we were outside things got a little bit crazier. so then today she woke me up to more making out and then we just layed around all day watching Walk The Line (good movie) and now we're going out...i just cant wait to rub it in Jeffs face.... well anyway thats how my very first day back was like...im gonna like this vaca.
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| Friday, May 5th, 2006
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7:34 am
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please disregard the first few sentences, im supposed to be doing a project on Nuclear Energy and i just trailed off into a thought provocing ramble...
Atomic energy is they key to sustaining life. If it were to ever escape our futile grasp we would all be destroyed. Life itself hangs in the balance of time and space or space-time. Sometimes I wonder if we will be the death of our own species. You see, the dinosaurs were killed off by nature, an unstoppable force of action that is the only thing greater than us, but we will get back to that. The dinosaurs died on their own, they couldn’t help it. Us however, well, we will be the death of ourselves, in a way, we are contributing in a global mass suicide.
As I was saying about Nature being an unstoppable force of action, I believe that perhaps nature itself is its own form of life. With that being said, as we are always believing that we are the dominant species on earth, perhaps we are wrong. Perhaps we are the next to dominant, and yet we can do nothing about it. If nature wanted to kill us off, it could, and I believe that it is merely toying with us lately. Nature is like god, through time it created us and it loves us enough to let us live for a while longer, however we are pushing it to its limits and soon we will see the wrath of “God” or nature, and it will wipe us out, leaving us with that burning question that has haunted our shadows for ever, “what is the meaning of life?” and yet, we think that when we die we discover the truth when really there is no truth to discover and we do nothing when we die we just die, but its hard to tell if any of this is real just because I only know the world through my eyes, I can only see whats in front of me, and I can only believe what happens to me. Which brings up my new question of “is anything real? Am I really here? Does anyone I know really exist? Or did my mind(and that’s all I am is an idea of thought) just create all of this from nothing. If that’s the case then nothing is real and I have nothing to worry about cause I can create whatever I want. I am the only entity in this “non-existent” universe, and I’m glad that I am all there really is, but how do I know.. I don’t and I cant and if I tried to explain it all, it would merely contradict what my point is. Even now, what im saying is not possible with my theory.
Nothing exists, that’s not possible cause nothing is something. Im afraid that we will never know what there REALLY is in this “life” and that death will just bring us to more questions and more thought in a different being.
Thank you
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| Thursday, May 4th, 2006
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1:04 pm - 15 days!!!
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see X-Men 3 comes out the 26th, so me and zac can go see it together. SWEET!!!! so if none of you have heard yes im comin up in 15 days and it will rock. although most of you will be in school still, im grateful that i have some friends that dont go to school (you lazy bastards!) so yes, im going to be in Enfield for a few days then im gonna be in Norwich for the rest of the two weeks. i am going to go to NFA for a day like i did in the winter. i will make the most effort to see all of my friends, but im making no promises. Aimee your invited to a party for Zac and Cassandra along with Richelle. i know how much you like Them, so im inviting you cause if you havent heard, Zac and Cassie are comin home for a few days!!! Unfortunatley Zac must go back to Iraq after his leave, but we will see him for a few days. Anyway, Aimee, Richelle already knew she was invited, but you are too in case you didnt know. I'll call you Friday the 26 when im going to norwich, or i'll just see ya on the green. so yeah thats the gist of it all for everyone to know now. i will NOT be living in CT again for a long time. i will be moving to RI in August of this summer with my brother Kurt and my sister Richelle.
thats all.
BILLY RULES!!!
oh by thy way can anyone confirm if the term "S&M" refers to Sadism and Masicism as in the chains and whips in the act of sexual intercourse... check out 8MM, good movie, dont watch with moms though.
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| Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
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ya know you guys suck with yur crappy "Spring Break!!!" woo hoo, but its still only 50 degrees up there and....no, thats nice, 90 sucks...thats the temp here. 90 fucking degrees. oh and by the way, i think im gettin depressed again, and thats not the greatest thing in the world....
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| Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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well, im sure most of you know that Katelyn Ritacco died. IM pretty sure not many of my friends knew her, but i did. in eighth grade her and her best friend decided to start talking to me and they were really nice. It was funny cause they were not the kind of people i would talk to. they were like hardcore preps. But still they were nice and very sweet. They signed my year book and i have a picture of them at Lake Compounce. we didnt know at the time if i was going into high school cause of my grades, but Katelyn said she hoped to see me there and she was glad i had "opened up to" them. It was the nicest thing anyone wrote in my yearbook and she is one of the nicest people i have ever met, but once we got into high scool, i saw her almost everyday, and not once did she say hello to me.. i felt intimidated by all her "preppy" friends so i didnt want to be the one to approach her.
I couldnt regret that more...
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| Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
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7:42 am
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i swear to god my mom needs to get with the times!!! this is the third time this year she has unplugged EVERYTHING in the entertainment system just to watch a movie...a VHS movie. the VCR has nothing to do with the DVD player! my mom doesnt even know how to work the DVD player. she always rearanges all the plugs and wires and says "im gonna do what i have to, to watch a movie!" like its a life or death situation.
Well we all hate this kid Casey. he gives me rides to school so we cant tell him that we hate him yet. i really hate him though. i want so bad to tell him to fuck off. hes just so goddamn rude and disresepctfull to everyone and everything, but the thing is hes not cool enough to make you want to hang out with him. hes just a douche.
so even more reason for me to get the fuck out of here. he doesnt like Arch Enemy. hes like "the guys voice is disgusting" i told him it was a girl so he rips it out of the cd player and throws it at me "my CD player is gonna get herpes!!" GGGGRRRRRRRGRGGRGRGRGRGRGRGRRGRGRGRG!!!!!!!
i kinda wanna shoot everyone in this state!
im looking at the pictures of the Art Gallery in Slater. i like the Tree-O one...its creepy.
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| Monday, April 3rd, 2006
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8:44 am - heres a list of CDs i want
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The new Nickeback
the new Disturbed
If hope Dies
Demon Hunter (richelle or AJ, which one is a good one?)
As i Lay dying
Morbid Angel(again)
and anything else you good people who love me could think of that i might like.
you know, work sucks, but i work with some cool people. my first paycheck im getting the Star Wars Box set. then im gonna save for a cell phone.
"you can't stop the REAL Napster!" - Seth Green, The Italian Job
(i think kurt would like that movie, just a big heist and fast cars.)
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| Thursday, March 30th, 2006
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8:48 am - hey, work sucks...
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well, i started, and it sucked, and its going to suck. saturday i have to go in at 630 in the morning and work for eight freaking hours. i'ld really rather take a beating from Joe Pesci. anyway, the people there were nice enough to the new guy, but one girl, older than me, looks, acts, talks and sounds just like Tina! and shes from New Britain! so its nice to work with her. i wonder if shes related to Tina. hey does anyone know where she lives now? im gonna want to see her when i come back, and why the fuck is she going out with a Mexican??!!! i dont get it, shes the one who made me racist!! shes the biggest redneck in Taftville! (well, was) i just dont get it!!!! but anyway, i had to cleen behind the grease traps on my first night. im not gonna remember what bun goes with what burger. and WORKING with the food makes it all less appealing, so i wont worry about getting fat(ter) lol, jk, well g2g, everyone keep me posted if you see ANY preview for Spiderman 3...
"hooters, Hooters HOOTERS!!!" - Adam Sandler, Big Daddy
current mood: nervous
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| Monday, March 27th, 2006
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8:22 am - Spring Break
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well, it was better than last year, I'll give it that! the fair still sucked nuts, and we didnt do anything. i got shot, went to Tampa for a Hackey Sack, got a job at McDonalds (i still dont have a schedule) stayed out till ten for half the week, (woo hoo) and bought a "TAPE" of The Who. me and Casey hung out the most, just hackin and startin fires in the park only to find out that we are in a High Risk area for Forest Fires. sweeet. my mom is a douche, i just dont understand what the hell could be up her ass all day! Tom is just getting progressively douche bag-like. i swear to god, kurt needs to get hear and take me home cause i am gonna just snap some day if i have to be around that kid anymore. i really want to burn him and his ugly fucking girlfriend. fuck them, i hope they die, i want help fucking with his house before i move, i cant wait for kurt to fix the Demon. i got an e-mail from Zac and apparently hes good. i geuss hes been getting busy making little movies about him wrestling with giant scorpions or sumthin. it sounds cool though. he said hes goin to make copies of his movies and send them to me.
first day back to school and im watching the little fucking rascals. jesus kill me. oh and i want to kill my teachers, im probably gonna bitch out my fourth block teacher today or at least this week. hey, Aimee, have you told anyone yet, or hows it all going? ;) tee hee, when you want AJ to know, can i tell him? anyway i was watching a show last night called The War at Home and i think a guest star was the Mademe from Tank Girl. i thought of you. also i found out Hugh Laurie from House (who is a great actor) has actually been in some shitty roles. any way, im gonna go into work today and find my schedule, and i promise i'll work there for more than a day! (*cough cough*) oh yeah and i got a bike so i can ride it to work and stuff. i just wish i had some tools to fix it, it still feels wierd, you know that new bike feeling. im so used to homemade bikes. HA! well, i will depart now and leave you guests to ponder your life. ta
"Ive come to buy some cheese!!!" - John Cleese
current mood: exanimate
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| Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
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12:35 pm - DIE FCAT DIE!!!
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so yeah, my mom is being uber douche like! um.. took FCAT, stupid long test, easier than hell, and if you fail you cant graduate, good thing i will be in CT then. so i reeeeeally suck at any sprot, probably cause we dont play many sports where i come from. its too cold. by the way nice weather here. i e-mailed Stephen Hawking, and that douche didnt even answer me, it said, "he gets too much mail so fuck off" i asked him if its true that mayonnaise has an IQ of 5. thats what i heard. i know i know. So still not sure on what will happen in the new Spidey flick. although today it says the Hobgoblin and that sux! yeah, classes are 30 minutes today cause of FCAT and its dumb. Tom said yesterday that i should stay here in FL. i said, "i've been thinking about it" i was lying. i effing hate this god-forsaken place. get me outa here... got to go now, so BYE!!!!
We're Knights of the Round Table,
We dance when ere we're able,
We do routines and chorus scenes
With footwork impeccable.
We dine well here in Camelot,
We eat ham and jam and spam a lot.
We're Knights of the Round Table,
Our shows are formidable, But many times, we're given rhymes
That are quite unsingable.
We're Opera mad in Camelot,
We sing from the diaphragma looooooot.
In war we're tough and able,
Quite indefatigable,
Between our quests we sequin vests,
And impersonate Clark Gable.
It's a busy life in Camelot,......
I HAVE TO PUSH THE PRAM A LOT!!!!!!
current mood:  blank
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